Taking My Time To Read MGT300

It is a nuisance to read those chapters. Though I was a GREAT READER once. And now I have leave my habit long long time ago. Pffftt.....what an idiot! And now...I am now looking forward to read the books once again. I don`t think I can built my interest to read those books in an instant. Arghh.....if I ever had the chance.....I want to be able to read the books and interested to read those books...very very very very interested to the books. I hope so. Amin. 

Friendship and relationship - to know me better

Having a friend is sometimes gave you a headache. Sometimes it does bother you. Why I said so? Because we are not a robot. We are human being. We have feelings and we are sensitive and stress and weak with the idea of friendship. You can`t forgive them when they make mistakes but you have to because they are your friends. They are not like your arch nemesis! There is a saying “A friendship won`t be perfect if there is no conflict and fighting among them”. Looks like it is ridiculous but it`s true. Some people don`t know how to express themselves through words and talks but they express it through their behavior.  But not anyone can take it through that way.  Instead of protecting us, they laugh at us and snorted and mocking us. It is not the way I should accept because they insult me. I have to admit. Friendship is awesome but it is not always sweet. What had happened to me that night make me realize who is my true friends.

I might not too open about my personal. I might be a little secretive about my life. I might have fallen to deep silent when we are having some chit chatting.  It is because I never experience what they are talking about. I have never been talkative.

I’m  in a process to be a quality person. I was lonely back then. Before I have a true friend.

I am really appreciated my friends. I have never been so selfish. I have never been so opened. And I have never been so hypocrite. I hate being like that and that is why I remain silent.

If you are reading this, I don`t care whether you want to take it seriously because I never ever abandon my friends. Those who knew me back then know how to handle me.

I stay away from you because I know you can`t stand without people around you. And I stay away because I have no problem to be alone. But the reason I`m writing this cause I don`t want to be alone anymore. I`m not a type of person who would tell stories about my life to others.  But I am tired too. I`m tired of the idea of being cheerful and energetic person.

p/s  : I have so many weakness because I always alone to faced it. I wished I have people to stand up for me.

He is DAMN good!

I wonder how

I wonder why

I kept seeing him today

Bhahahaha no wonder…

It’s the game,the family day

All people haaa…go to that event :)

He is there

So close but still far to reach

Finally there comes time

To ask him aka stalk him from a very close part :)

I like his character -  sweet,modest,simple and talkative

They asked questions and he answered

And I stare at his face ( before he realize)

How a person could be so smart?

What does he ate?

He is so nice compared to others…..is it?

He is so close now…so close that I can see him very clearly  :)

And he say good luck for me (and the rest) for the exam

Ouh…he is just soo sweet :)

p/s  : he is nothing but I admired cause of the cleverness and sweetness in him :)

When my mum called me,i told her everything

My mum called me one day. She asked me about money and everything. And she asked me why I behaved like shit to my father. I`m clueless. I don`t know what to say. My tears starts rolling down my cheek. I didn`t meant to be harsh to him but he acts like he is the boss ( I didn`t meant to but sometime he is). There is time I can hold my anger but there is also time where I can`t hold my anger. Everyone have feeling and I do have feeling. And he chooses the wrong time to spoke to me and instruct me and ordered me and pushed me and urghh…. i was so against him that day. He piss off! His eyes looks like it wanted to went out from its socket.  (Sigh) my mom was so mad bout my behavior that day. As a result….i have to go back to hostel with train. With mad and feeling like a shit,I`m stay in at the house,seeing the car they drove left the countryside. My mum also asked me to apologize  to him. What should I do? What about my feeling? What about his behavior too? 

p/s  : I am absolutely innocent!

Who Are You?

Today is very simple. Though my mood is not that simple. Go to class. Skip class. Bumped to some sportracks students. They are naughty. Jahat~~~one of them,kind of handsome,tall,considered long hair ( Korean style – bajet handsome la 2) and look tough (Heehee sempat lagi!) grabbed my bag from behind and I feel like i`m at the air~~~feeling sunshine~~~hahaha…then I throw a look to see who the hell is that. OMG! I don`t even recognize them at all. Never seen them. Never talk to them. Why they grabbed my bag? i`m confused!!! He look handsome though..hahah i`m not gonna forget the scene when he grabbed mine. Then he followed me from behind. Talk about something nonsense and RETWEET what i`m saying (I didn`t say it out loud but they still can hear me?! Weirdo!) and he suddenly walk on my side! Arghh…please…I don`t want to have a scandal with sportracks students!

p/s  ; if I have a boyfriend….no! sportrack students cannot be trusted!